I know I can’t be the only person who asks themselves this. I ask myself this all the time and I never receive an answer, until now. I have spent most of my adult life mad and beating myself up over things that I can’t change. Here are some things that I have been doing and some short term goals.
I think that learning another language is an awesome and necessary thing. Living in the U.S. if you are not learning a new language, what are you doing with your life? I began learning Spanish in elementary when I lived overseas and then i took it in high school and minored in it in college. Currently, I have been using Duolingo and Hello Talk, as well as reading novels in Spanish to help me to better understand it. I also watch television shows and YouTube channels in Spanish.
I never thought that in a million years that I would be a teacher, but look at me now. I will be teaching second grade beginning in the fall. I also tutor and have been since 2014. In 2013, I had applied to teach English in China. I was going to be in a city right outside of Beijing. I was so excited. I had signed my contract, was shown my apartment, everything was in place. It came down to them wanting me to be there within 7 days. I could not do that not only because I didn’t have everything situated here, but because the ticket at the last minute was $1600. There was no way I was going to be able to do that. So, here I am now, a teacher at a charter school and I am so excited about that.
I have been back on it with my YouTube videos and have been more consistent. I have so much more content than when I first started. With that being said, my followers and views have gone up tremendously. I had been at a stagnant 32 subscribers for months, literally months, and now I am at 140 and counting. I am hoping to be able to reach more people with my message of veganism and growing as people of color.
My vegan guide has been doing so well and I am excited about it. I’m thinking about some more services that I want to add to my site for you all, but I will keep those under wraps. I will be finishing up two novels that I have been working on and they will either be out by the end of the year or beginning of next. I don’t think that I will be diverting from being an indie author because I love this freedom, although I do want to start writing for other people.
I say all of this to say that even though everything seems to be going perfect, I am still not happy. It’s not enough. If you watched the video above, you would see what I am talking about. At 27, I did not picture my life the way it is. Granted I am happy and blessed, but I had always dreamed that I would be traveling the world and blogging/vlogging about all of my adventures. I still plan to do that, but like my mom said, sometimes it takes time for your dreams to come true or into fruition and I will keep hope and faith alive. I will be traveling the world one day. I give it 2-3 years, enough time to gain teaching experience and pay off my debts, then I will be applying overseas, again, but just a different country. I walk around so mad all the time and just beating myself up when I just need to be patient and have faith. Until next time, set long- and short-term goals.
Afro Hippie Vegan